words

 

FLOATING

I'm with the river now, so I'm floating
I'm with the river now, so I'm floating

I always knew that the water would come back to soothe me
And I've learned by now that it's up to myself to be happy
All of that concrete was pushing me towards decay
But I always knew that the water would take me away

I'm with the river now, so I'm floating
I'm with the river now, so I'm floating
I'm floating

I'm gonna stay in these waters 'till I'm macerated
Stay here till my veins are soaked and my heart is gruel
I've found that breathing is hardest when I'm not alone
But after these waters have rinsed me I've changed I know

I'm with the river now, so I'm floating
I'm with the river now, so I'm floating
I'm floating

I'm with the river now, so I'm floating
I'm with the river now, so I'm floating
I'm floating

I still sometimes want to die but I'm keeping a promise
I told myself I must deal with whatever is coming
You can't take anything from me that's truthfully mine
That would be my soul and my heart and my mind

I'm with the river now, so I'm floating
I'm with the river now, so I'm floating
I'm with the river now, so I'm floating
I'm with the river now, so I'm floating

 

YOU LAY LOW

Bordering on a break of silence
As we loudly moan defiance
You speak first, you speak first, you speak first

No, I was not about to cry
I was not about to cry
But you cry first, you cry first, oh just burst

Barely spoke, but enough’s been said
Have a feeling you’ll start to yell
But you lay low, you lay low, you lay low now

You lay low
You lay low

I know it’s a matter of taste
But to me you were always a waste
Such a waste, such disgrace, but beautiful face

You’ve shown me a new kind of greed
And you’ve taught me to compete
But I’ll lay low, I’ll lay low, I’ll lay low now

I’ll lay low
I’ll lay low

You lay low
You lay low

Bordering on a break of silence
But I never wanted your words nor guidance
All the while truth was mine, truth was mine

So you lay low
You lay low
You lay low
You lay low

storm

The earth is howling these days
The wind is screaming at my face
That I barely got any dignity left, I

Sank so low that I damn near drowned
Surviving on the thought of loving someone, somehow
But love is a hell I cannot bear
So what am I to do here?

My bones rattle under my skin
They hate the home they live in
And I’m no posterchild for bravery
Due to the fear this city induced in me

But will I manage to find peace at last?
Drop me a light, let me forget my past

Love is a temptress, that’s for sure
But I won’t fall her flatter anymore
I will not fall not even once more

Maybe I needed a storm
To relent and to clear my fucking thoughts
Just hand me a bottle, if not more and
I am gone
I am gone
It took a hurricane
To know I won’t change

But will I have something if I refuse to love?
I have nothing if all I have is love

 

COPENHAGEN

Someday I’ll cross the sea
If you need a trail
Follow the prints of my bare feet
At the bottom of the sea

I’ve felt home in this stagnation
In lack of all I didn’t dare
But I gave myself an ultimatum
Due to my recurring nightmares

I’ll go to London
Copenhagen or New York
I’ll go anywhere but here
Just anywhere but here

I’ll play the streets for courtesy
Until I dare to ask for more
Until I learn to be seen and heard
Unafraid of being a bore

I’ll go to Belfast
Beijing or Tennessee
I’ll go anywhere but here
Just anywhere but here

And if I meet a man
I’ll try to let him love me
And I’ll try as hard as I can
To let myself love him

But I’ll be all alone
At least that’s what I hope
Until I figure out
Why this heart is crammed with doubt

I’ll go to London
Copenhagen or New York
I’ll go anywhere but here
Just anywhere but here

I’ll cross the sea
Someday I’ll cross the sea

everlasting

 

Don’t ask for insurance
That I won’t leave you this time
If you don’t ask me
I have no need to lie

Don’t ask if my heart
Is truly yours this time
If you’re scared your own will break
Then don’t engage this time

You’re not a victim of circumstance
You’re just stuck in a vicious, glamorized trance
Believing there’s a chance to enhance
This fruitless romance

Don’t ask me to prove
That my love is sincere
You’re draining me of
The last desire I feel

I know I sound cold
And cruel at times, I’m just
Tired of constantly providing evidence
To prove that I care
And I don’t care that much, I guess
I just don’t believe in
Everlasting love

You’re not a victim of circumstance
You’re just stuck in a vicious, glamorized trance
believing there’s a chance to enhance this fruitless romance

Round it goes around and around
It goes around and around
This ruthless romance
Round it goes around and around
It goes around and around
This ruthless romance

You’re not a victim of circumstance
You’re just stuck in a vicious, glamorized trance
believing there’s a chance to enhance this fruitless romance

winter arrived

Spring came
Spring went
By then we cared more for each other than life itself

And I loved you most the day you looked at me
Across that rigid room and I could see

That you would love me till the end of time
Till the end of time you would be mine

But summer came
And summer went
You had to go, I had to stay

And I hated you most the day you went away
No promises you made could ease that pain

Well autumn fell
And autumn went
Loving you got harder with each day

An aching pain that would not go away
Would I ever see my love again?

And so I slowly let my heart grow cold and as
Winter arrived I let you go
I didn't know

That I would love you till the end of time
Till the end of time
Wish you were mine

I will love you till the end of time
Till the end of time
Wish you were mine

 

VAGRANT

Teetering on the edge

Of becoming a vagrant

I'm searching for a home in every hole

Cursing my sensitivity a hell of a distance

Craving a little more opposition to stroll

 

What am I doing in these corners

Where nobody ever goes

Except the city's lost sons and daughters

Are we all up for disposal?

Let me know

 

Wavering on the edge

Of becoming latent

Does a heart have to be whole?

Cursing my naivety I know I'm a fool

Believing everything that shines is gold

 

What am I doing in these corners

Where nobody ever goes

Except the city's lost sons and daughters

Are we all up for disposal?

Let me know

Are we All

 

Teetering on the edge

Of becoming a vagrant

I'm searching for a home in every hole

Cursing my sensitivity a hell of a distance

Frightened by the peril in the barrel I saw the shooting hole

 

What am I doing in these corners

Where nobody ever goes

Except the city's lost sons and daughters

Are we all up for disposal?

Let me know

 

 

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